Thursday, January 31, 2013

Whispers

When you want to shout from the rooftops,
But, instead, you whisper on the breeze,
As if it were the dearest secret from your heart
'I am happy'

Thursday, January 24, 2013

Passing Fancies

As I sit here, fingers tapping away at my keyboard in the quiet late night, my mind is on so many things.

I am thinking about love, about friendship, about the past, present, and the future.
I am thinking about second chances and fresh starts and new beginnings, about holding on and letting go. Familiar, versus new. 
I am pondering the term 'getting to know', and how hard it really is to do.
I am thinking about school, about acting, about shows, about stories, about how I wish that $400 - no, $500+ dollars would just drop out of the sky without complication, so I can get that tablet I desperately want before the semester starts.

I am thinking about the thrill of passion, the sweetness of hope, the excitement of discovery. 
I am thinking of the warmth of familiarity, and the comfort which comes with time.

I am thinking that, though I am an open book, it has become so very hard to communicate what is on my mind, to ask the questions I want to ask.
I am thinking that I know why it is suddenly so hard.

I am thinking about the difference between the clarity with which I saw people then, and the uncertain haze through which I see them now.
I am thinking, I so wish I knew what was happening.

I am thinking how funny it is that I've convinced myself I am shocking and upfront, when I am scared to be the first to jump in.
I am thinking that it doesn't matter what the answer is- truly, in a way it doesn't, although that makes it seem as if I couldn't care one way or the other, though I do.

In this world where things can go so fast, and so frighteningly slow, in this world of instant gratification and waiting, where all manner of things can change in the blink of an eye or last, inexplicably, through a lifetime - where you can skip ahead but fall behind in ways you've never imagined..

I am thinking: In this world, this changeable world, how is anyone supposed to know, with any certainty, what it is that they want?

After wishing that someone would take the first step, would you run when they came towards you?
After wishing for a second chance, would you regret moving the wrong direction?
After wanting, for so long, to be the person someone else sees...Would you feel compelled to hide?

And would any of those feelings encompass your whole heart?

Or would they simply, sometimes comfortingly, be just- passing fancies?

Friday, January 18, 2013

Dear Everyone: Watch This Standup. Now.

Hello All! I'm going to take a moment to enthusiastically endorse this stand up routine by comedian  Hal Sparks. His take on pretty much everything is incredibly relatable (which IS a word, so shut up, Blogspot), but there are a few things that make him absolutely stand out in my mind as one of the best that I've seen.

Not convinced? Read my reasons below the video link.


Why You Should Watch Hal Sparks: Charmageddon


1.) Hal Sparks does not even tread the line near any type of racist humor.

2.) His point of view on date rape is refreshing, brilliant and had me saying 'Hell yea!' more than once.

3.) His take on genitalia and the way 'pussy' is used a a derogatory term is amazing.

4.) He does not make jokes about people of any other sexual orientation - not even one gay joke. In fact, the only time he is absolutely serious is when he makes a comment supporting people of any sexual/gender identity. This, to me, is a breath of fresh air, since even the best of (mostly the male) comedians make at least one joke about how they aren't gay (not a comment - a joke - as if they have to just make sure you know).

Summation: In his stand up show, "Charmageddon", Hal Sparks offers wonderfully relatable, intelligent and unique perspectives without going 'below the belt' as far as targets for his jokes. And the laughs never stop - there are so many funny lines, one right after the other, that it's impossible to quote them all.

Also, anyone who's ever been irritated by being labeled stuff other people do, (i.e. 'non-smoker') will probably never stop laughing.

Do yourself a favor and watch this show - or look up clips and watch those. I'm willing to bet you'll find something to love somewhere in it.

TTFn, Lovelies!


Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Assumption of Youth


Do not judge me for what I 'haven't been through',
Do not assume you know what I will say,
Do not interrupt the story I am telling you,
Do not tell try to tell me not to feel that way.

Do not think that you know better 'cause you're older,
Do not dare imply you've seen it all before,
Do not rush to be the conscience on my shoulder,
Do not humble me to dust upon the floor.

And when I am confiding, pay attention.
You'll find journeys in my eyes you've never seen.
Do not blind yourself with your misapprehension.
See me now for what I am, and where I've been.

-Me (December 10th, 2012)